Prayer

Prayer is an amazing thing. God does listen to our problems, he does forgive, he loves EVERYONE no matter what SIN unconditionally.

Since Ryland has been born I have felt hopeless. Work has been crappy, I have been very judge mental of others and I have forgotten some important things in my life. These issues led to many panic and asthma attacks so bad to the point where I cannot see straight there for walking around was not a smart option. I had my most recent attack last night, it was really bad, I was really mean to Trevor. After he had got me calmed down I told him what I need as a mom, wife, student, 19 yr old, employee and female. He listened. This morning I went and worked out while him and Ryland slept. Then I went to the water front to observe everything go has blessed me with and I prayed, I cried out to God to forgive me for my sins and lead me down the path he wants me to go. Then I read the bible about how the temple of God was rebuilt and it showed me what kind of faith I need to have in God to have a great relationship with him. Then tonight when I went to work a friend of mine says the doctor thinks she has cervical cancer. She has no medical and is broke (can not pay rent or anything) because of the stupid medical tests. My mom had cervical cancer and I was so scared for her, I love my mama and I did not want anything to harm her! I don't want anything to take my friend away either, and the cancer may not just be cervical. I am going to pray for her nerves and her strength to get through this and to remember that God is walking with her, I am praying for the doctors to figure out what is wrong so she can afford herself again, I am praying that she have patients and for everyone around her   to take to this well. I am frightened when I hear the word cancer, I know everything happens for a reason and I hope that she does too.