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Gahh Ryland's new cough is driving me batty, but after is doctor appointment today I found it is nothing to really worry about. I got up with a hang over type head ache and a screaming baby. Then I got a text from the boss man, then I HAD to get up... ha. so i worked for like 2.5 hours then went home and changed into cute spring dress and went to Ryland's apt.. which actually gave me a real answer so that was good but we were there for and hour then went and picked up my sis to take her to my mom at her work.. Traffic was sooo BAD! We did not get to the office til 330 ish and I was rushing for work which was ... eh.. haha im just glad my baby boy is ok and i mad mucho mula today =]

BOO! =[

I want everyone in my family to get along. On both sides. Life is too short to be angery all the time or hurting someone all the time.

• My mama's having nerve problems, I wish I could help.
• My granny in law has been sick off and on and just got better, I wish I could help.
• Ryland is sicky and theres nothing docs can do because he is little, I feel like they don't give a shit.
• Brittany, my co-worker and really great friend is trying to find her purpose in life and her mom's boyfriend had a heart attack, I wan make it better.
• Trevor's process for the military is rediculus, we need medical.
• My friends baby is like 1 month old and is in the hospital and I wish I could help. They don't know whats wrong.
• Carissa is having family issues that I wish I could make perfect too.. 
• vita is doing well but i kinda want her back.

I really have no idea what to do about anything. I am just going to pray and keep the faith and do what I can do. I am not complaining im just finding an out... without crying nutty.

My DAY

I got up at 745 to a coughing, babbling, and very tired happy boy. He stayed up for a lil while but showed that he was still really tired. So after a bottle and diaper change he went back to bed. We all slept until 1030am and I was woken up by two beautiful baby blue eyes right in my face! ♥ Perfect way to wake up :) I made Ryland breakfast and ate mine while Trevor fed him the first half of the jar. Then, I fed him the second part of the jar while Trevor ate and then we all got ready to go to Bremerton and get my gym stuff from OC. I LOVE OUR TEAM WORK :)

On the way to OC we got coffee and it was not good =/ this was not the worse part of my day. When I left the gym a nice gentleman held the door open... its nice to know my husband is not the only one...

On the way home from OC, on the high way in the s curves, some dumbass in a HUGE brown van decided to turn the corner. We switched lanes legally (SMOG) the white care behind the van slowed way down so we legally got over again (SMOG), the brown van was still in the middle lane in the s curve!!! while we were in the 3rd lane already, this is when van decided to turn from the MIDDLE lane!! He did not get over he just turned last minute and was sooooo fucking close to hitting us! Trevor was driving and thank GOD my brakes are awesome because TURNING ON THE HIGH WAY AT LAST MINUTE IN THE S CURVES is not fucking the smartest move. Trevor SLAMMED on the brakes and my truck skidded to a stop while the van carelessly blew the stop sign at his turn and almost hit another car after his turn. I hope that guy gets a HUGE fucking ticket and a few months in jail. So help me, had he hit the truck out of stupidity with my baby in the car I would have murdered him.

All day Ryland has had a cough and a runny nose and a temper. He has not taken much of a nap but he needs it. So I put him to bed early. I hope that tonight goes well and that he feels better in the morning.

The Life of US.

Figured out my organized mess

I want to be a great mom and wife. I want a relationship with God and Jesus. I want to be a personal trainer. I have no idea why I am going to OC, so I am going to go through spring quarter at OC and pennfoster... all my classes are going to be online so I can stay home with Ryland most of the time. I am going to take summer off from oc and finish getting my certificate for personal training and celebrate Ryland's first brithday =] Also, we will make it a habit to go to church every sunday.Then in the fall I am going to continue with personal training and see where it takes my little family. In the mean time Trevor will be in the Army and Ryland will be my right hand man! I will go back to OC when I need to. I la la love my little family and I think I finally figured out what we need!

change

I complain about the way I look, my house being a mess and not doing as well in college as I was. I always plan to make everything better but it almost never works i never seem to find a happy mediummm BLAAAAH

today

Today I did something really immature and something that isn't me. Today I started drama about a girl because she could not keep her mouth shut. I was so angry so I made her feel bad by asking a very mean question... I think it was some what funny but it was not my place to make her feel bad because she made me mad. There is always a reason for everything so no matter what it is she is going through to make her cause shit i should be forgiving of her. I am going to apologize if i see her. Tomorrow i will make it right.


Today I stood strong even if it was hard. I listen to so many people's stories and some times it just kills me inside but i know to help them they need to talk. Tomorrow i will understand. 


Today I made major decisions for myself and my family. I need to stop with the bullshit when I have time to study and do homework, just do it. when I'm at work show what I've got . While I am at home spend time with my husband and my son. Tomorrow I will have faith in me.


Today I learned what love is. Tomorrow I will start showing it ♥