Stay at home mom

I never thought it was for me. I am working on my patience, I am young, afraid that I will loose myself, afraid my baby boy will be too attached, and I am afraid I wont accomplish anything. I feel bad for saying that because my house will be clean, my baby and husband will be happy so I guess I will be accomplishing things. School can wait until later but how do I not loose myself? All these reasons to not be a stay at home mommy but just as equally amount of reason's to be a stay at home mommy.

A new change

I love being a new mom so much! My son is so amazing! he is around 15 lbs and around 2ft tall. He is seven months old and drooly and has 3 teeth workin on number 4. He has dark blonde redish brownish hair. Ryland has one hell of an attitude. He crawls,attempts to stand, chews on everything, yells if he isn't being held haha, and he has the sweetest laugh! I love him so much! I had so many psycho issues with hormones for the last several months it is insane! I also have been paranoid about being pregnant again and what people thought of me actually started bugging me. I have never been one to care about what others think of me, until I got pregnant. But my hormones have calmed down and I no longer give a shit. But right after having ryland we moved out of Trevor's (husband) parent's house into our first apartment. Everything changed. Now everything is a mess, all we do is work and spend time together as the little trio we are. This change brought me closer to God because I constantly worry about my little family's health and financial stuff and love. So in the last seven months... I've started 2 different colleges, had a baby, got my own apartment with my high school love (my husband), and I work a ton. I love my life and I would not change any of it. I love this new change. Just something to start with...

First Blog

I have never done this before so bare with me here. I want to start a blog to write down thoughts and personal opinions and get insight from other people. It seems like it would be a good place to vent, ask questions, and make general conversations... and i have no idea why my blog says ryland just FYI ha