Finally figured it out!

It has been a while since I have blogged! I have finally figured out how to function through out the week and it feels so GREAT! Its all help from family and God though! I have been working out, cleaning, reading the bible and praying, studying/school, spending quality time with Ryland and Trevor and working (not in that order though). My break days are Sunday no matter what! I wish I had time to do a real blog but I don't so I am just updating on my life for now. :)

quack quack quack all the way home (haha)

So I have not blogged in a very long time. The last blog did not blow over well and so much has happened since then. I am so busy. I do so much and any part time employee/college student/wife/mom would understand! So recently Ryland has been walking tons! All over the place! He claps now! He recognizes the alphabet song and some counting :)! He also dances and claps along to 'if your happy and you know it.' Ryland says dada, baba, chad (uncle), truck, duck, quack and babbles a ton! Rybug growls too! He is getting way to big to fast :(.Today when I picked him up from my inlaws he just started saying duck and quacking until I parked at home! :) Trevor has been working a ton, which is nice for income but I always miss him! I have been working what ever shifts because I have realized that I have so much better going for me than dominos. My relationship with God is so amazing and my family relationships are getting stronger now I just need to be nice to people if I want friends.. haha! School is going GREAT and I am currently updating a ton of my stuff! So good bye for now!

venting! + life update

GAHHH: I forgot that I worked an open shift on father's day and anyone who needed the day off for their fathers asked for the day off... I asked to open all week so I opened on Sunday. I texted my mom on Monday and said you got any plans for fathers day and she says not yet. Then I ask if we could plan something like we did for her for mother's day for my dad for father's day. She says okay and I suggest like pancake house or something but mom suggests the airport so we plan a brunch at the airport at 1130 am. Dominos opens at 11 so all prep has to be done before then. Through out the week I don't even think about how opening and father's day brunch could go. I opened three times this week (which was fine I do not mind being busy or the extra hours and I love having the end of the day rather than the beginning). Opening three times plus 4-Rush shifts plus working out plus cleaning plus bein a mommy and student and wife and being excited for father's day I did not think about how OPENING and FATHER'S DAY BRUNCH would not work out. Then my Grandma calls me on Friday or Saturday (can't remember) and asked if any of us minded if she brought Grandpa because his son did not plan anything. She called after nine, after work, after working out and when Ry was going to bed and I was not paying attention to my phone, I was cleaning. So she left a message, I never called her back. But she was at my moms the next day and asked if it was okay if she came and I said of course! Still not thinking about OPENING and FATHERS DAY until that night I had to cancel. Then today I asked my mom how the brunch went and she says "Well after the person who's idea it was bailed waiting to hours for a table and gma getting grumpy and only eating a piece of pie then saying she felt nauseous and not eating any more just peachy" OKAY. IT WAS NOT MY IDEA TO TAKE HIM TO THE AIRPORT, partially because I knew about the wait, expense and how lame it sounded. I just agreed because I figured it was something he wanted to do which is good reason considering that it was FATHER'S DAY. I had also had a pretty crappy open shift because SOME PEOPLE need to be punched in the face.  I love my job and my family but sometimes it is just ...OMG.

LIFE: Trevor and I pin pointed my anxiety and stress probs. now we just have to try to work them out. Trevor and Ryland got covered under medical for walmart. I realized how soon I am graduating my first non grade school! Ryland is almost walking and talks about dogs! LOL! He also is getting more teeth! He is switched to just milk and down to 3 to 4 bottles a day. We are currently re-arranging and deep cleaning our home. Today we got storage filled up and way more space in our home. Anyway, I have not blogged in a long time haha (like a week) so I just thought I would update. 

been on cloud nine :)

I have been on cloud nine for the last few days! Been back to my workingout schedule! We all slept in yesterday and took a 3 hour nap today! I also have been eating healthy and working the perfect amount :) also trying to mend a friendship with someone. Our ryry has been talking :) I LOVE MY LITTLE CHATTER BOX! :)

My Rybug and the park :)

Since the weather has been really good lately Trevor and I had been taking Ryland to the park lately. Well, I have never brought him there on my own until today. We had a mommy baby day ♥ While we walked to the park he held my hands and walked a little bit! Then when we got there he climbed the stairs all by his self! Then he and I went down the slide together a few times and I chased him. Then some like six year old came to the playground, by himself :[ , Ryland was in 'awe' HAHA. He just stared at this kid then started following him around and doing everything he could do that the other kid was doing! If you have an infant you know they get distracted from time to time and he did... he eventually decided to see what a rock tasted like. : / Then he continued to follow the 'big boy' until he had to go home. Then he crawled down a grassy hill the whole way down and then we went home. When we went home (he walked all the way to our door including up the stairs) he heard a dog and got SOOO excited! He stops moving and frantically searches yelling 'dahh, dahh, dahh' (dog,dog,dog). It was so freaking amazing to walk with him to the park ♥ :)


In other news, OC sucks for now, and I am running out of time to get my personal training done. So now its time to just focus on that and my rybug and home! So I will be working out constantly.. no joke.. already started yesterday. Like I used too. I also will be cleaning, working, and playing with ryland ALL the time. I am so thankful for my supportive family, friends and wonderful husband! ♥

everything

Things finally seem back to normal. No relationship issues. No arguments. Work is good. School is good. Home is fairly clean. Timing seems alright. Today was great. We all got up this morning and ate together and played a bit then Ryland was ready for a nap. So we all took a nap and got up at 1230 and got ready to go out for the day. Ry and I walked to Safeway and Walmart when Trevor went to work. We had no food in the kitchen so I kinda needed to go while I was out I surprised my wonderful husband with lunch and got Ryland some apple juice, Then Ryland and I went home and shared a sandwich and played with toys and played outside. Then he started getting so fussy so I gave him a deal he could not refuse: bath, love, baba, story, and bed! It worked he was out in ten minutes! I think we would love me being a stay at home mom I just am not sure how that would work out.. just kinda expressing my feelings on that (point of this post). I need to do something with my life to be successful in my opinion. Keeping a clean house, faithful relationship and happy family is success to me. But staying at home all the time to do it all myself does not sound ideal. I have always wanted to be active whether it be cheer leading, dancing, military workouts, video workouts, going on walks, or any sport. In like junior high I decided that is what I am really interested in but I recently figured out that I want that to be my life. I just love to be active and since I have had Ryland I have been having serious withdraws. This is my last week at olympic college for like at least two quarters. That way I can focus on my lil family and my personal training certificate. I have been thinking about all of that today. The only thing is I cannot stop thinking about Adam. I spent all day being busy with my little man but at the end of the day all I can think about is the most recent lost friend. I really hope this passes. I am so thankful for all the people in my life though. It hurts so much to see people who were closer to him be in so much pain and to think about his family.. Also I miss my best friend, matt. who was touched by him. BLAH. I just miss all of that. When I think about it I feel numb. All of the recent stuff makes me want to talk to people and be close to people but I always have that fear of getting hurt or things being awkward or too much drama. I am socially awkward.. ha. No kidding though. It seems as though Adam's passing is forcing that to change. So yeah that is everything for right now...

may 27 2011 #2

In lighter news : Things have been getting pretty good since my last freak out. Rybug is getting so capable! My husband is so amazing and helpful! I have less than two weeks of college left then I get a break from that for a while while I focus on getting my personal training certificate. After I get my certificate, depending on where my little family is in life, I will go back to school I am not sure for what yet though. The the summer is going to be so busy though!

-both sides of my parents are going on a vacation so there is house sitting
-Ry's next doc apt,
-Ry's first brithday
-Ry's first dentist apt.
-My besties birthday (hope she will be home)
-working hard to get rid of the last of my baby weight
-celebrating our anniversary
-cousins birthdays
-friends sons birthday
-working
-studying for my cert.
-getting Trev into the military.

Its going to be busy but a nice break from oc and less stressful. I love my son and husband .. but yeah there was the most recent update. :)