So much happened today. Last night was horrible Ryland was up all freakin night! Trevor let me sleep a little then we both got up with Ry again this morning then all slept till 1130 then I woke up to a text 'Adam Patton died'. I said what?, wow.
This is the first time Ryland has stayed up all night and I have lost some one so close. Everyone who has died in the last year just keeps getting closer and closer. My best friend called me this morning and it has been too long since I have talked to him. He made me crack, I have never cried because of someone dying and after hearing Matt talk about Adam just made me cry. It was a whole new kind of cry. All I have been able to think about is I am never going to see him in person again. Some day I will in spirit but not in person. It also makes me wonder who is next. I wont be able to see him in ten years and ask what he has been doing with himself. So many people I know and have known for the last five years were hurt by his leaving. I know we all know that he is in a much better place that is way bigger than any of us. We all also have awesome memories until we meet again.
I have decided to do my best to love unconditionally because of this year so far. I want to spend as much time with anyone or everyone because it is not worth getting mad or judgmental (which we all do, which is why we avoid each other) to have them be up and gone the next day.
I am so thankful for God teaching us lessons from something we think is so negative. He really is in a better place and he died honorably; no matter how we feel that is the truth. RIP Adam you will be missed.
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